Monday, 9 September 2013

Graduation Day





It was a windy day, blowing our cape as we felt oh so powerful and proud, the feeling of becoming nearly the crème de la crème. The rebellious wind found a friend in me and I fighting against it, adjusting my toppling hat (or Mortarboard as they call them here) was climbing the Church (yes my Graduation was held in a larger than life Cathedral) stairs, waiting to see my friends. I was so excited to go inside and be felicitated for my achievements on this day, my graduation ceremony. The hustle and bustle in the Cathedral hall was unbelievable to me, I pinched myself *ouch*. Yes !! I was here and it was like Deja-vu for my mind because i had dreamt of this day when i was 15 unaware it will come true. Subconsciously I had chased it all throughout for 10 years to get to this day but I was still amazed that I made it come true.
I was going to turn 25 and this was my best gift to myself. I wanted to be 3 things Independent, Loved and Employed. That winter of 2011, I had achieved all the three "Independence" from conservativeness, "Love" in its most passionate and magnanimous form and "Employment" in an IT multinational.

You might reckon that in this glorious moment I might have went berserk with happiness !! No that sadly did not happen. I know many people might not have felt this feeling and perhaps is very difficult to get a grasp of what I am going to say next. Yes I wasn't happy on that day, because another unthinkable thing happened on the way to achieving Independence, Love and Job somehow I missed my family more than ever. I had never in my wildest dreams thought that this would happen. Yes !!! There i said it !! I missed my family, My Dad, My Mom and my little sister. And I said to myself "How I wish you were here and How I could see the pride on your face" !! I felt some emptiness inspite of getting what I thought I wanted most in my life. But today I wanted them the most, wanted them to be there to share my happiness and never had realisation struck me so bad..



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